Random Meme #478

I stole another one from Kapgar. I'm not sure if there is any rhyme or reason to this one. They seem to be rather random questions, but some are interesting, so here we go again: 

1. What were you afraid of as a child?
My parents. Harsh, but true.

2. When have you been most courageous?
When my daughter was born two months premature and I had to stay in the hospital for three days in a different hospital from her – before I could see her. Those were very rough days, not knowing if she was going to live or die and not even being able to see her.

3. What sound most disturbs you?
Animals or children that you can tell are in pain. Not necessarily in that order.

4. What is the greatest amount of physical pain you’ve been in?
Besides childbirth (four times)? I had pleurosy early in my first pregnancy. It hurt just to breath – I mean, you just wanted to hold your breath forever it hurt so bad. I couldn't take medication because of being pregnant, so suffered through. Other pains you can suffer with, but if you can't breath… well, makes it kind of hard to do everything else.

5. What’s your biggest fear for your children? (or children in general if you don’t have some of your own.)
Having to bury them. I know it's cliche to say this, but no parent should have to bury their children.  (Kapgar said this but I agree perfectly so left it). I would have to say my second biggest fear for them is that I will lose my mind and they'll have to pick up the pieces. I've put them through enough along those lines to last a lifetime.

6. What is the hardest physical challenge you’ve achieved?
Hmmm… I am not a physcial person so it isn't like I've climbed a mountain or anything. I guess just getting through all the medical stuff I've been through, including my back surgery. It's pretty scary when they tell you they're going in through the front of your neck and you may never talk again.

7. Which do you prefer: Mountains or oceans/big water?
No preference. I like them both and live near neither.

8. What is the one thing you do for yourself that helps you keep everything together?
I am? Keeping it together? Mwhaaa haaa haaa… 

9. Ever had a close relative or friend with cancer?
Yes. Too many to count.

10. What are the things your friends count on you for?
I don't know. Honestly. I'm a bad friend… I guess you'd have to ask them that.

11. What is the best part of being in a committed relationship?
Oh, where do I begin? Having someone who, when you are having a bad day, can honestly say "I'm on your side" and you know they mean it. Who can wrap you in their arms and not even say a word and make you feel safe and loved and have a tremendous calming effect on you. So many other things – too many to list.

12. What is the hardest part of being in a committed relationship?
Oh, where do I begin? Kidding. I think the hardest part is the same as the kid question. I fear if he dies first… I fear if I die first. I have kind of a death phobia. I've lost too many people at a young age. I don't feel as old as I am and I think I should be taking better care of myself and he should be taking better care of himself and we both think we'll live forever… or at least we think we'll die together. I kind of think we should be a little more concerned about it.

13. Summer or Winter? Why?
Winter. Absolutely. It is my season. The season of the fireplace and the homemade bread and the stews and soups and the curling up with a book and not having work as hard or worry about the crops in the field or the flower beds needing weeding or watering or de-bugging.

14. Have you ever been in a school-yard fight? Why and what happened?
No. I was witness to one. Once. In junior high. Scared the crap out of me. It was broken up before it got too bad, but I don't respond well to violence.

15. Why blog?
Why not?

16. Did you learn about sex, and/or sex safety from your parents?
I remember my mother telling me about it when I was pretty young, then we had sex ed in school but I already knew it by then. Mom said she told me early on because she didn't want me to be "surprised" when I got my first period. She could have saved her breath. I was a 'late bloomer'.

17. How do you plan to talk to your kids about sex and/or sex safety?
Well… seeing as the youngest one is 24, I think hope suspect my job is done.

18. What are you most thankful for this year?
I've too many things to claim just one… I guess I'll just say, go back and review my last week's worth of posts. I hit the high spots.