Masking

I wrote an extensive paper once for a school project all about the masks we all wear. This came back to me today as I was in my office and overheard one of the drivers chatting with the other guys. He was all smiles and jokes and Mr. Positive. Not five minutes later I overheard him having a conversation on his cell phone that was far from sweetness and light… and it isn't the first time I've seen him do this.

It reminded me of how everyone thought my father was the life of the party. He would laugh and joke and be personable and someone everyone wanted to talk to… but I saw the other side. The mean drunk. The man who would use sarcasm as a double-edged sword, cutting right to the heart of whoever he had taken aim at.

I think of my own life. I've played so many roles that I could get labeled with mulitple personality disorder. At this time in my life I like to think I'm the most honest with myself and open with others that I've ever been. Still? I tend to put on a different face when I'm with my parents, my in-laws, and the public in general. I'm pretty much the way you see me here the rest of the time… and with my husband and kids I am the most genuine of all.

How about you? Do you feel you are a genuine person for the biggest part of your life or are you masking?