Saying Goodbye

Closure. Isn't that what they call it when you finally can lay to rest all those feelings you've had since someone dies? I guess that's what we have now. Closure. Yesterday we had a memorial service for my dad. It was low-key. Mainly family and a few close friends of my folks. We just had it at mom's house and although my cousin who is a minister did say a few words, for the most part it was just visiting, eating, and remembering. One of my dad's sisters had made a video of some old pictures of Dad and me from when I was little… pictures that my grandmother and grandfather had (they are both gone). Some I had seen, some I had not.

There were tears and laughter. Lots of hugs. Promises to keep in touch.

I still have very mixed feelings about my dad. My cousin made a not-so-subtle hint of that in his words. Something about remembering the good and letting the bad go. Yeah. Easier said than done sometimes. I hope one day I will be able to remember some more good things. Until then, I'll just try not to remember the bad and instead remember the lovely day we had with family and friends.


Yesterday was Easter. Easter, at least in most families, is a holiday. Holiday means holiday food.

Every year since I can remember, my mom-in-law has had Easter dinner. Until last year. Last year we never heard from her and the kids all had plans (except one) so we just had last-minute dinner at our house. I can't remember the exact menu, but I think it was steaks grilled outside and all the fixin's. Well, after that my MIL decided she should have had Easter dinner. She never really said why she hadn't had it, but guess she started feeling guilty about it so we were expecting to be invited this year.

As of Wednesday we'd not heard a word out of her. Most of the kids were busy at other relatives again, so it was down to just younger daughter, Hubs and myself. I figured I'd cook dinner this year and invite my MIL, brother-in-law (who is in divorce process) and one of his son's. Daughter and I had been talking, coming up with the holiday menu… something pretty traditional for our family. Tradition in our family does not mean difficult or complicated. Remember that part. It is just some family favorites. I figured ham, and raisen sauce, complimented by cheesy potato casserole, a family strawberry -sour cream – banana jello salad, rolls, some veggie like scalloped corn or green bean casserole, and a yummie dessert (preferable chocolate).

I must step back a minute and explain something. A few weeks ago my youngest son's wife began an extreme exercise program at the local kick-boxing facility. It is a 10-week program of exercise, nutrition, and motivation. She finished (and in VERY good shape, I might add) and decided to continue with the maintence program. Well, having seen how well it served her, she talked my younger daughter into doing it. She started two weeks ago. At the time, I decided that although I'm not in good enough shape to do the exercise part (trust me, it would KILL me)… I would follow the diet / nutrition program, then use the treadmill now residing at my house. One of the things about the program that we all like is Sunday Funday. In other words, Sunday is a "free" day… you can eat whatever you want. This means after having been good all week, you look forward to Sunday and having something yummy and preferably non-diet and, oh, chocolate doesn't hurt.

Back to Easter.

As my daughter and I were planning the menu, my MIL called. She'd decided to have Easter dinner after all. I was delighted as it is usually delicious (MIL can cook – when she wants to) and although I offered to bring something, she said with so few of us coming, she could handle it. She mentioned having ham (so far so good)… and making cake for dessert (even better). That's where things went downhill. Silly us… expecting the traditional dinner. Why? Why would we expect the cheesy potatoes and the family strawberry salad and some yummy veg? Why? Because that is what people LIKE. I know my MIL has commented before that she doesn't understand why we always have that strawberry salad. Why? Because people LOVE IT. Besides… "always" having it doesn't mean weekly, or even monthly. More like four times a year (Christmas, Thanksgiving, July 4th, and EASTER).

The menu? Lame, I'm sorry to say. It was a meal that I would serve my husband if I'd gotten home at 5:45 and wanted to eat at 6:15. We had ham (so far so good), raisen sauce (mmm), baked potatoes, canned corn, and bagged lettuce salad (not even our family home-made dressing recipe). Cake? Lemon, not chocolate. At least one person doesn't even like lemon.

How simple could she get? I mean… I'm sorry, but that is NOT holiday food. That was the easy road. If we'd known she was going to go for basic and easy, we'd have brought the salad and the potatoes and the dessert! Argh. It wasn't even food that qualified for Sunday Funday. *sigh*

I know, it was the thought that counted. It just seems she didn't put a whole lot of thought into it. Let's just say the supper we had at Applebee's saved Sunday Funday. Next year, Easter is at my house.

Some Day I’d Like To…

….kick some virus-trojan-spyware-malware creator creep's ass up between his/her ears.

I've just spent days… DAYS… trying to get something called Hacktool.Rootkit off my computer at work. It was a stinker. My anti-virus would keep catching it, and saying it was deleted, but that I needed to reboot to get rid of it altogether. Then when I would reboot, it would find it and catch it again. We (the tech support people at my company and myself) tried 101 different ways to get rid of it. Finally, we were able to get an updated copy of our Norton that would kill it for good.

Oh… and after I kick the ass of the person who creates these things, I would kick the ass of the guys in my office who get on my computer when I'm not there and surf the net, picking UP this shit. Grrrrr….

Keeping Current

Wow. I was just flipping through my blogroll to try and do some long-overdue catching up and was amazed – and dismayed – to see how many blogs have either totally disappeared or gone private. I am tempted to throw away all the links and start from scratch. Would that be cruel? Would that be upsetting? Hrm. I may need to think about this. Do me a favor. If you've gone private and would like to let me see your blog, please send me an email and give me the link and whatever I need to know to get in, mkay? My email is sesnyde at gmail dot com. Thanks! Oh, and if I do decide to clean 'em all off and your disappears, feel free to contact me to put it back. I'd love to keep in touch.