Counting Down…

Pain clinic appointment is on Wednesday afternoon. I’m counting down. First it was days, now it is hours. About ten years ago I had an experience with the Pain Clinic. I’d been having some pain again and was sent there. After taking an MRI the doctor told me they could see no obvious sources of my pain. I was dejected, thinking that was the end of it and I’d be sent home to deal with it as best as I could. I made the comment “I guess this pain is all in my head”. The doctor replied, “We don’t care if we can’t see anything, if you are having pain we will do our best to try and relieve it.”

They then proceeded to give me a shot of, although I’m not sure of the name, I figure was a steroid. He told me it wouldn’t hurt right away because of the anesthesia they apply at the time of the shot, but that the next day it would hurt as that anesthesia wore off… and, in a couple of days I would either have relief or no relief. When I asked how long the relief might last he told me it varied in everyone. Some people have it last for a day, some for a lifetime. Everyone is different.

It worked exactly like he said. As far as relief? It lasted for at least five years… so that’s not so bad! Now, if I can just get through the fall that will be a great help. Anything beyond that?

Racing Recap

What a year it has been for my son racing. Oh, my! I only rarely used to go but this year I got tough and ended up going to most of them. He was racing Friday nights at a track about 40 miles away and by the end of the season (a couple of weeks ago) he’d won several races and ended up second in points for his class. On Saturday nights he was racing at the track that is only a few miles away, but didn’t have as good a time there. Too many issues with other racers being… uh… dickheads. Yeah, I said it. At any rate, a couple of weeks ago was the big Supernational race there that I’ve spoken of in years past. It is a race that draws people from all over, even Australia, to compete in different classes. It is a week long qualifying challange, which ends up on Saturday night being the big final race.

Son didn’t have a very good week. His car was running well and although it was supposed to look like this:

By shortly into the first race, it looked like this:

Slammed into a wall by another car. Yes, it happened right in front of my face. That was a good thing and a bad thing, as his wife and I decided later. It was good because he was close enough I could’ve counted his freckles and we could see he was okay. It was bad because HELLO IT WAS RIGHT IN FRONT OF OUR FACE. Yeah.

So it got hauled out off the track, loaded onto a trailer and taken to the nearby shop where it was all torn apart and a new front end was put on. Son has some awesome friends who helped … and, who were just coming to watch the race… not intending to be put to work until 4 a.m., then having a couple of hours sleep, going back at it to get him up and running and back in ship-shape condition in time to run the next chance race at 2:00 that afternoon.

He didn’t do very well in that race. Three hours sleep out of the last 36 doesn’t make judgement or reflexes very good and he went over the bank. No harm to himself or the car, but no advancement either.

The next night he was able to gain a spot in the bigger ‘B’ main but drew starting position 25. He had to end up within the top 8. I missed that race, as it rained and we weren’t sure if it was going to be rained out or not and my back was killing me, so daughter came and picked me up to take me home. Hubs told me he did awesome, though, battling through all those cars and getting just a car length from being one of the eight. He wasn’t happy but was glad the car was running well and he felt he got his groove back after some much-needed sleep.

Finally the last night and the last chance. He had to do well enough to get a last chance in to the big main race. It wasn’t to be. After all the rain the night before, now the track was bone dry and slick. He started near the back and there was just no getting anywhere. No one was passing… it was just too slippery and they couldn’t get a grip. Sadly his week long quest to get into the big race was not to be.

Watching the races after that was bittersweet. He was pretty down at first, feeling like he’d let all the guys down who had helped him with the car all week. Then his buddies got to talking with him and let him know they were just happy to be there and thrilled with how well he’d done and it boosted his spirits up. I was able to watch the other races knowing he was going to be okay and I didn’t have to worry about him being out in a car.

It didn’t hurt that a friend of his won the whole thing, too. His friend that was the number one in points at the other track… where my son came in number two. So, it was okay.

Plus… son had another big race just last Friday night and came led the field most of the race until some lap-traffic messed him up. Still he made it into second place. Not too shabby.

Me? I’m always about a.) is son okay? b.) is the car okay? … last but not least is c.) how did he do? In my mind, all is good.

Friday Sorta

Yes, I’m back. Shocked, aren’t you? I told you I’d try to do better!

Well, the title is referring to the fact that it is Friday but in my world at this time of the year it doesn’t really mean anything. I’ll be back at work bright and early again tomorrow morning. Still waiting to hear on Sunday. I hope we don’t have to work Sunday. I’m already exhausted and I about threw up this morning from the pain in my shoulder.

In updated news on that. I had my MRI on Wednesday. It was supposed to be 20 minutes of laying perfectly still on my back, then dye injected and another 20 minutes. Well, first off when they say perfectly still, they mean absolutely completely still. I was asked not to even swallow. I remember when I had my last one back in 2007 I had a tickle and kept coughing. At least this time that wasn’t an issue. However, because of the way my neck has been fused in previous surgeries, I don’t lay ‘flat’. The nurse tried… she gave me a thin blanket to put under my head, but it may as well not have been there. My neck and shoulder hurt that much more just from the position. Then, laying perfectly, absolutely still… not for 20 minutes, but for over 30! Yes, then they pulled me out, injected dye, and put me back in for another 30 minutes! I was miserable. I’m not claustrophobic and the noise doesn’t bother me at all… but the pain. Ack.

So here I am a couple of days later and I was sitting at my desk this morning trying not to throw up, my shoulder hurt so. I brought an ice pack to put on it and was trying my best to work and self-medicate, all the time hoping I didn’t throw up at work. That would be the worst. I managed to hold it together for a couple of hours until the nausea passed but I’m back on the ice pack again and wishing the day were over.

After work I’m rushing home and getting around to go to one of my son’s last races. Last week was the big “Supernational” race that lasts all week. I’ll tell you more about that in a future post. I just keep thinking of things I missed posting this summer that I really should catch you up on.

So, for the moment, you just still get me whining. Lucky you!


I was gently prodded by a blog-friend to update this space. I got to looking and couldn’t believe I’ve not been around here all summer. That’s crazy. I missed so many little (and big) things I should have blogged about, the least of which was my blogiversary in August!

I’ll try to give it to you in small doses…

I see when I left off in May I was in a size 6 and not expecting to get smaller. Well. I have lost a total of 75 lbs, recently got into a size 2, and am for the most part in the best shape of my life. With one exception. My back (neck) is a mess again. No, I didn’t hurt it running. It has just gradually gotten more painful through the summer and after trying to let the chiropractor do some gentle physical therapy type stuff on me, it has come down to an MRI on Wednesday and an appointment with the local pain clinic in a couple of weeks. I’m hoping I can make it until then seeing as I’ve gone back to work full time again (summer is really over) and it seems to be the most painful when I’m sitting… and, yes, working on the ‘puter. Will keep fingers crossed that they come up with a solution and I can put off my third back surgery, at least for awhile. (Oh, and before anyone says it… I DO EAT and I am not anorexic or bulemic and I’m not an exercise freak. It has just been slow and steady and watching not to eat too many ‘no-no’s)

Family is doing well:

Eldest daughter had a brief setback this summer, but after some changes in medication it appears she’s on the right track again. I worry so about her, and continually pray she finds peace and happiness.

Eldest son and his wife are still playing happy homemakers. Looking at fencing and a new puppy in their future.

Younger daughter ended up with her dream job after all… and only a short commute. Hasn’t been there long, but it is looking like it is going to be a great fit.

Youngest and his wife are just coming off of a pretty successful racing season. He had some big wins this year and ended up second in points at one of the tracks he races at. Now he and Hubs have to buckle down and get the grain harvest started.

I’ll try to come by a little more often… oh, and get by to see you all as well. Hopefully you’ve been better at this blogging thing than I have been!