That's the way I feel these days. Hubs tells me it is all in my mind… (isn't that what I've been saying?)… but I feel a bit "off" for lack of a better word. I have tried to figure out why. Is it the pain? The lack of sleep? The fact that all I want to do IS sleep? I'm just not sure. I keep going over things and it all gets sorted into a rough timeline. There is "Before the Surgery", "After the Surgery – aka Recovery", and "Before the Wedding".

I keep thinking I have lots of time to do things, but really I don't. It's getting me a bit flustered. Not a comfortable place for me to be.  For heaven's sake, I still have my Christmas decorations up… and I haven't touched a Christmas card to send out yet! You all thought I was kidding when I said "Valentines"… I may have been stating the obvious!

I had my "pre-op" check up yesterday, something I've not had in the past with previous surgeries. They are very thorough, doing EKG's, bloodwork, and all kinds of stuff. I appear to be well enough to withstand surgery. Yippee.

I try to visualize what is going to happen afterwards. How mobile will I be? How will I feel? Will I still have a lot of stiffness in my shoulders, just without the pain or will it all come back? I know I'm going to be strapped into the neck brace that I've come to refer to as the "Darth Vadar". It makes me feel that way. I was to wear it a bit this week to get used to it and to make sure it didn't hurt anywhere. Talk about immobile! Yikes. Certainly a far cry from the foam rubber neck brace they put me in last time!

There is a wedding shower saturday for the blushing bride, then she and my son have their respective bachelor and bachelorette parties on Saturday night. That pretty much wipes out Saturday. Although I won't be drinking much, I know just staying out late will take a toll and I'm going to be very tired on Sunday… and that's the last day I have to get organized.

I still haven't gotten my network working at home. The new laptop is going to happen, as well, it appears, as one for the straight-A student in the family. We've discussed shopping on Saturday afternoon between social activities. With luck, that will all be taken care of and I can get it all connected on Sunday. you know, while I'm doing that other 3,975 things I need to do before I go into the hospital.

I appreciate all the well wishes and good thoughts you're holding for me. On a related note – I talked to our repairman and the internet work was covered under warranty! YES! He's supposed to come Tuesday (fingers crossed) to update our TV stuff – I'm actually moving into the DVR world. Hope I like it as much as you all have told me. We're updating our cable boxes to HD and adding the DVR.

Now… what have I forgotten to mention…

Oh, yeah. I changed the template again. Hubs didn't like the dark one. Said it reminded him too much of my "dark" site and I try and respect his opinions. I realize this one is pretty basic, but right now I need some clean lines and some organization. At least one place in my scatterbrained life!

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10 thoughts on “Scatterbrained”

  1. I know it is easy for me to say, but: try to calm down! Yes, it is very unnerving to be going into surgery–but, that is why you shouldn’t worry about anything you HAVE to do, just do what you WANT to do beforehand. (Ummm, like Christmas cards! :)) Anyway, good thoughts are going out to you–and you will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. Hang in there, my dear–it will all work out.

  2. Hang tough with all of this…it’s a lot and don’t underestimate how much pain distorts one’s thinking. Heck when I get sick I can’t think clearly much less when I’m in any kind of chronic pain. You really do have a lot going on in a relatively small amount of time here and it’s all pretty big stuff. I know when I have been in that position I can only take things one day at a time otherwise the stress of trying to orchestrate everything makes it impossible for me to actually do anything effectively. When I really just stay in the day I am actually in and focus on only what that day requires I am much more peaceful and effective which in turn brings me more peace.
    You’re in my thoughts.

  3. One thing at a time – just don’t look at the overall picture. Things will get done – really they will. 🙂

    As for DVR – excellent stuff – record shows and skip all the damned commercials… Love it!

  4. With all that’s going on, I’m surprised that you can remember your own name!

    I know it’s rough now, but just think how great it is going to be when all that stuff is behind you!

    You will be in my prayers, Sue…I believe that all will be well, too.

  5. Thinking all you have to do and the stress of the upcoming surgery and recovery is a big factor in your scatter-brain-ed-ness. Wish I were there to take down your Christmas decorations for you!

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