That's the way I feel these days. Hubs tells me it is all in my mind… (isn't that what I've been saying?)… but I feel a bit "off" for lack of a better word. I have tried to figure out why. Is it the pain? The lack of sleep? The fact that all I want to do IS sleep? I'm just not sure. I keep going over things and it all gets sorted into a rough timeline. There is "Before the Surgery", "After the Surgery – aka Recovery", and "Before the Wedding".
I keep thinking I have lots of time to do things, but really I don't. It's getting me a bit flustered. Not a comfortable place for me to be. For heaven's sake, I still have my Christmas decorations up… and I haven't touched a Christmas card to send out yet! You all thought I was kidding when I said "Valentines"… I may have been stating the obvious!
I had my "pre-op" check up yesterday, something I've not had in the past with previous surgeries. They are very thorough, doing EKG's, bloodwork, and all kinds of stuff. I appear to be well enough to withstand surgery. Yippee.
I try to visualize what is going to happen afterwards. How mobile will I be? How will I feel? Will I still have a lot of stiffness in my shoulders, just without the pain or will it all come back? I know I'm going to be strapped into the neck brace that I've come to refer to as the "Darth Vadar". It makes me feel that way. I was to wear it a bit this week to get used to it and to make sure it didn't hurt anywhere. Talk about immobile! Yikes. Certainly a far cry from the foam rubber neck brace they put me in last time!
There is a wedding shower saturday for the blushing bride, then she and my son have their respective bachelor and bachelorette parties on Saturday night. That pretty much wipes out Saturday. Although I won't be drinking much, I know just staying out late will take a toll and I'm going to be very tired on Sunday… and that's the last day I have to get organized.
I still haven't gotten my network working at home. The new laptop is going to happen, as well, it appears, as one for the straight-A student in the family. We've discussed shopping on Saturday afternoon between social activities. With luck, that will all be taken care of and I can get it all connected on Sunday. you know, while I'm doing that other 3,975 things I need to do before I go into the hospital.
I appreciate all the well wishes and good thoughts you're holding for me. On a related note – I talked to our repairman and the internet work was covered under warranty! YES! He's supposed to come Tuesday (fingers crossed) to update our TV stuff – I'm actually moving into the DVR world. Hope I like it as much as you all have told me. We're updating our cable boxes to HD and adding the DVR.
Now… what have I forgotten to mention…
Oh, yeah. I changed the template again. Hubs didn't like the dark one. Said it reminded him too much of my "dark" site and I try and respect his opinions. I realize this one is pretty basic, but right now I need some clean lines and some organization. At least one place in my scatterbrained life!