I've been going to physical therapy three times a week for the past couple of weeks… and on into the future indefinately. From the beginning, I told my therapist that I had a couple of goals I wanted to meet. I wanted to be able to put on my own coat. Dressing can be frustrating and tiring and having to ask people (sometimes strangers) to help you put on your coat seems rather a simple task until you can't do it without contorting and making faces drawn from pain. It can be embarrassing to ask for help, too.
My other goal was to be able to drive. The neurologist left it up to the physical therapy people to determine when I was capable.
Wednesday my therapist got my hopes up. He had me sit down and handed me a flat piece of wood cut into a circle shape – the size of a steering wheel. He had me look to the right as far as I could. To the left as far as I could. Turn the "wheel" as far each way as possible. I thought I did okay… until he smiled and said, "Ummm… not yet."
Not that I have lots of places to go or things to do. In all honesty, my biggest 'have to do' right now is just getting to therapy! Work this time of year is very slow (thank goodness) and I've been logging into work from home, occasionally doing an hour here or there, but nothing that I've needed to go in for. However, we live in the country and it isn't as though I can just walk to the store or to the library or to run any other errands I may have. I'm grounded. My mother-in-law has been taking me to therapy. She loves to get out of her house and goes to town most every day if for nothing else, to get a newspaper. So I seem to work into her schedule okay. I try to schedule my appointments around her. My daughter has been good about either picking up things at the grocery store for me or picking me up and taking me to get groceries and running miscellaneous other errands. Still, I hate not being able to just go out and jump in the car and go when I feel I need to. I'm having a greater appreciation for people who are elderly and can drive no longer or for one reason or another are shut-ins and unable to come and go freely.
At least i know I will be able to drive again… eventually… just, "not yet".